Just the other day, a thought popped into my head — “Life is good lately. No problems.”
And, voila, the next day hell broke lose. I fucked up at work big time and spent two anxious days trying to berate myself.
And, realized, instead of berating and wallowing in self-pity, I would be of better use if I apply myself to the solution. Hopefully, the situation can be handled. I am optimistic.
But, the realization that I missed looking at the bigger picture while lost in my useless daily contemplations was a serious and a much needed wakeup call.
In retrospect, life was never problem free. I was complacent to my own detriment. If I was living a practical life, I would be drowning in tasks to finish before the impending change I am hell bent on avoiding. As usual, I am pushing what is required to the last possible moment.
We love to live the life of complacency while the storm builds up, gathering force and speed, ready to hit and tear you down. Humans have a crazy power to shove things under the carpet, rug or blanket, take your pick, till it suits them and makes life easy. Change is scary.
The fascinating fact is our Brains have a lot of say in fighting our default behavior. Brains are wired in a certain thought pattern based on our experiences and we become comfortable with the general rhythm of life.
Now, if you want to fight the existing system which your brain has honed for you, you need to fight your own survival instinct. And, to do that you need a lot of energy. Yes, actual calories.
As I said, Change is Hard. The least I can do is binge eat into emotional coma while my brain gets scrambled again!!
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